51 posts tagged “love”
i finally finished painting my sketch book... yeah i'm so excited... and proud...:
yes the chinese girls face's eyeballs are way to close... bu i still like it and the colors... i adore the front of the book with they egg yolk sun... how i adore that...
oh this cute baby of my friend that is living with me for awhile is wonderfull cute... and tonight she decided to stick her finger down her throat and puke... she made herself puke like 3 times... looking at it and eating it... until her mom came over and stopped her from doing it... it was so silly and funny to see this baby do it because she thought it was new and fun not knowing it was actually bad for her...
she is adorable... and then she starts to make these cute baby noises only trying to talk and they come out in like "aaahhhhss" and "bleppp"... so cute... an adoreable... i think adorable is my word tonight...
and i leave you with candy faces... the self portraits that i love to take of well of course myself...
oh tonight was supposed to be a movie night with the drama girls and an extra girl... but it instead turned into and wine game night... i laughed my ass off... my cheeks still hurt... there was some drama that was going on but all in all it turned out to be a good night... and yes i was slightly drunk... oh i love my wine for sure.. thank you dancing bull...
candy
the sky is so entertaining before the storm... the sky is crushed by the clouds that seem to darken in color as the light strikes the ground on the right side... its coming fast... the drops that fall form silver dollars on the ground and start to splash into puddles on my car... flowing fast with speed and raging into a thunderous roar calling only for calmer days...
drama is now back in my life... i have three friends... one friend that has no drama... and 2 that has all this drama... i have gotten to the point of not talking to one because she knows what to do (let go and tell the truth), but she won't she wants to hold on to the yo-yo relationship she is in... its a dark cloud that passes over her and storms into her and my life... why is it in my life because she tells me all the gory lightening bolts details of this so-called relationship... which killed her relationship with the other girl... and the other girl thinks she is a big fat lier... and then i her her story of thunderous booms in my ear... i can't handle any more... i just want to hold some chickens tight so they poop out some eggs for me... oh feed my worms or see my friend Kelly... which called me one day and said,
"hey how are you?... i'm in the mood for some candy..."
i replied, "oh really i have some organic strawberry lollies... if you want you can come over..."
she cut me off and said, "oh i meant you silly i was miss my daily dose of you.."
secrety i thought "YES!!!! she likes me just as much as i like her!!!! Yea!" and then i did a happy dance...
things will clear up because storms always tend to clear up... and become beautiful days...
candy
check it out my girl Kelly posted on her myspace a seperate folder that states "Candies Beautiful Photography" oh the glory of have my pics on someone esle's page... oh it makes me jump for joy... and it makes me feel like i could be a true photographer... i really can do it...
oh and a great story... i posted an ad on craigslist for a friend... and i've had a few people reply... but kelly was one of them... and she and i chatted for like two weeks and decided to meet finally... and we hit it off... she is the hippie chick in dreads and i'm the hippie chick with the camera in hand... we work and i adore her...
thank goodness for new friends... and i feel like she and my boyfriend is all i need for now... thank you texas!
candy
i went to my friend kelly's house... we had lunch today and chatted while her little lady lana... decided to be herself which means... loud... and wanting attention... oh and did i mention she was butt ass naked and i was so jealous of her... lol...
i thought man i'll take pictures of chickens... how hard could it be?... ha ha... hard enough... lets see the move their heads so much... that i would get blurry pictures... but ate least i had a good close up of a chicken trying to peck the lense of my camera... i also had a good picture of the puppy dog trying to sniff my camera lense... it was so cute and bad at the same time...
i scared one of kelly's dogs with my camera... he would not allow me to pet him... aww... but i did get one good picture of him...
and kelly gave me some worms so now i have pet worms... yeah!!! :)
it was a nice day... i enjoy spending time with kelly... her kids are beautiful and creative... and her flowers are wonderful as well as her pets... she eats organic foods just like do... and the coolest part is that she has dreads... rock on chicka!
my trainer says i need to eat more protein... only because he says my muscle mass needs to be brought up even though i lost like 5lbs... i'm done with him... so i'm going to go for a run tomorrow at 6am!! yeah want to join me?
oh and i did laundry!!
the end...
candy
i really do shoot better with my camera... i'm back from drills with the Army National Guard... we had to go to the range this weekend... and fire our M16A2's...i zeroed out perfectly... almost scary like i could kill something with ease... but then off to the pop up targets... which i believe was not working right because no one was passing... i shot almost till my hands and shoulders gave in... i counted about 24 or 25 out of 40 but it only counted 18... and people that normally get like 36 out of 40 targets didn't even pass... it was bad real bad...
after about 5 hours of sleep we had to go to the 203, 249 (saw), and M9 ranges... luckily since i was CLS qualified... i became the combat medic for the 249 range... which meant i sat in the van and waited for someone to pass out... so i could stick them... then i also became the radio bitch so that i could call range control every hour on the hour till the range went cold...
the next day they tried to make me take a humvee drivers test... which i took like 6 years ago... so i gave them my expired license and bam i didn't have to take the test but instead i had to clean the bath room... yum... right huh...
made it home and i slept... oh and because i got a friend to join the guard i'll be getting 2,000 dollars from them!!! oh yeah... oh and thinking of getting a job as a recruiter here... only cuz they pay about 46,000 a year... nice... but i have to get people to join and i have to get at least 3 people a month...i think... i can' do it only because im next to fort hood... and prior military is now recieving a 20,000 dollar bonus... nice huh... people join because of the bonus... and college money...
oh watched Iron Man tonight... it rocked my socks! i was not expecting it to be that good!! so go and watch it now bitches... lol...
oh and greg thanks for the CD... i'm going to listen to it quite soon... i still have to get your's and debbers out to you both... damn maybe tomorrow!
candy
i was playing with the shadows in my house...
this trampoline has moved from my neighbors house to the middle of the properties then to the front to be thrown away by the garbage men... which apparently they couldn't trash so it sat out front for about 3 days... then i came outside and it wasn't in the front... and i went back inside to hear noise of children laughters.. and bam the damn trampoline that is broken down and saw better days is in my backgroud as well as all the neighborhood girls... they tried to jump on it... they ate on it... they formed clubs putting the hands in a unit and screaming strength as they did hand cart races on the trampoline... it was cute but noisey as well as running into my door... oh well you know i'll let them imagine because it is so much better than watching t.v. or going on the internet... oh man thats my life... i'm so jealous of the broken down trampoline...
my boyfriend and i are doing better... and i dragged him for 10 minutes to find this trail... it was great but i plan on spending more time for pictures... he even suggested running the trail together... which i'll agree to its gets our lazy asses off the couch! ha ha...
man i have been away from posting on vox in awhile... due to a slight depression... no job... few friends... and being so bored in my apartment... eww... thus the lack of posts...
so i had fun with a head band last night at like 1am... i love the fake smiles and the sparkles... yeah for head bands and a camera!
candy
He left me alone in the dark
Letting the carpet comfort my weeping soul
My eyes red
Red and swallow from tears
Apparently I cry and yell all the time
I am crying
Right now
Curled up in a fetus form
Yelling for my mom to be here with me
Knowing that she is only an airline ticket way
Why?
Did you leave me alone
I have no one
I used to have you
You left me
Alone
Crying
Yelling out “Why”
“I’m so alone”
Tears still falling, I punch the floor
I hear the dinging sounds of my cell phone turn off
I am alone
But I am here
Alive
Still breathing
For me
You are just a distant but constant memory
Which I’m learning to ignore
So the tears can stop
The screams can hence
There all better
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almost all better... the cell phone is still off...
candy
i've been wanting to upload this for almost a year... it makes me laugh so much!
candy
even though i've caught a cold... i still felt i should take pictures and to think i couldn't even breathe out of my nose... looks like i was actually happy and loving life... when i am sick, coughing, blowing the nose... or having a tough time breathing out of the nose... but i do say pink looks good on me!! ha ha...
candy